RantRantRant.

"That's how the native americans did it"

I think everyone should get off my back, all people have been doing is nagging me. It's starting to drive me mad. "Go to school", "Make sure you check your work hours", "If you don't go to school you're not going to go anywhere in life","Come on,just do it", "You're so dumb", "Hope you sent it".

Wow,it's getting so hectic and I want to run into a dark cave and HIDE.I just want simple,is that really to hard to ask? apparently so. School is getting on my nerves and it's honestly a prison right now,I barely talk to anybody anymore. I'm regretting a choice I made last semester which is bumming me out because up until this point I only had one regret in my life,now I have two. I hate how people are hypocrites and I hate how I can't complain about it because it's nothing to them,but it means a lot to me but of coarse nobody quite understands that either.
Also,what's with everyone dieing all of a sudden?
Besides Patrick Swayze(which is really sad), some extended family has passed away but also my mom's friend,and some kids in a car accident as well as a classmates sister's boyfriend she went on a speel about today. On a little bit of a morbid note, my mom and I were talking about how I'd want my funeral if I were to die a young death, and so it's going to be like this,

NOBODY(no person) is to wear black to my funeral at all, why? WELL because because black is represented as a color of mourning. And why you might ask I don't want it? because I don't want people to mourn my death, I don't want them to cry about me being gone,I want them to be happy that I was on earth for as many years as I was, be thankful that they had the chance to meet me and enjoy(or hate) my presence,I don't want people crying about how much they'll miss me,rather be happy about the times I got to spend with them. As sappy as that sounds.
And then they'd play one of my favorite songs,and then when whoever makes my speech,make sure they give a shoutout to all of my closest friends and tell them to go to the bar and have a few good drinks and probably smoke some herb for me.
I'd want to be cremated and for my ashes to be spread out in the lake, but for one handful I'd want them to be let go over fire.
Wow,I'm really not that morbid...but that's pretty much what I told my mom today when we were talking about how the funeral she went to was,that's another thing I don't do,is funerals,since well my logic is stated above,I refuse to wear black hence my mom not thinking it's a good idea I attend.
MOVING ON, my friend is shadowing me tomorrow for school and I'm quite excited cause I want to show her some people who go to my school as well as introduce her to this one boy in my english class.
ANYHOW,I'm quite tired and I still have some History homework to catch up on.
Until my next post,
-Malika