Missed chances..

"Hey!"

When I was out earlier today, I saw a friend I was getting sort of close to when my boyfriend and I were taking some time for ourselves. This said friend had told me he liked me as more than just a friend and instead of being thrilled I was horrified. I ran in the opposite direction, told him I would get to know him.. two days later I ended up getting back with Ryan. I explained it to him and now we briefly talk, which sucks because he really is a great guy. Well, when I saw him today a wave of feelings came over me.It made me realize I'm probably missing out on something good or something that could have been awesome, but you see... I wasn't in the right state of mind to be getting to know someone new in a romantic way, I was still torn up about what happened between Ryan and I. And the thing is, I know it could have turned into something with Matt, but I know for a fact I'd just be comparing it with whatever Ryan and I had, constantly. I know he'd be all I'd think about, and I didn't want to be that girl...being with someone just because I can't be with the person I truly want.

I don't know tonight was kinda strange.

It still exists?

"Blogspot?"

Oh my jeeze.. I haven't made a single post on this silly thing for a really really long time. Tumblr definitely took over.
What has been up? Where do I even begin?!?.. Well, I should begin with saying that I'm quite content with what has happened since the last time I posted something. I'm not longer under the same pressures that I was when I was living at home. That special someone I made a previous post about is still in my life, we've gone through some downs and got dragged through the mud a bit but we made it through and I'm so grateful that he's in my life. My parents separated and my mom and I are living in a different place. I started another year of school at the beginning of the month and I'm really hoping for the best, better than last year that is. My life is completely different and is always changing and most of the time I'm embracing the change with open arms because that's how I know I'm progressing towards something, and that's what matters right?

I have no clue how long it will be before I make another post on this but I'll try to as much as it crosses my mind. Although, I'm doubting the fact that anyone still reads this since I've switched over ti Tumblr which I'll give a link to below....
Maks1234.tumblr.com