So,here it is.

"He really did eh?"

I feel like a hypocrite times 10,for one major reason. I broke a promise to myself,sososo disapointed. First week of school has past,I...really don't mind it. I have like two friends but you know...loneliness isn't always so bad(HAH). I've already skipped(sadly) and I'm sort of bored with people watching. My life feels as if it's on pause in more ways then one,but going way to fast in others. July already feels eons ago,and those feelings are burried finally,sometimes they come and visit me when I let my mind wonder there but I'm getting better at not thinking about it. I'm going down to Barrie in October,not really sure when I'm going exactly but sometime next month I'm boarding a bus down to see my old friend and a new one,well sort of new, I'm really quite excited.


I'm re-evaluating my life,deciding what's most important. Writing everything down that makes me feel,weather it being happy or not. I'm reading more, and taking in every line. I'm writing a lot more too,the weather has been so inspiring. Listening to people's opinions about life and watching them fall in and out of love has also spiked an odd emotion in me, it's heartbreaking and I cried the other day because of it. It's funny how some people hang onto the imperminent things with dear life,and when they disapear they fail to realize that all the time they'll spend suffering with their loss they could be out cherishing their family and friends. It's heartbreaking how some people always have to learn the hard way to realize that life isn't always handed to the people who deserve it the most. Wow,I sound like a saptree...I'll stop.


Moving on, my job is going really well...nothing like my last(was pure hell),I have a feeling I'll be at this place for awhile. I've put my first amount of money down for saving for an iMac which rules so much because it gives me hope that I'll keep feeding that small lump of green. Also,I started going to jogs(or longlong walks),it clears my mind so much and makes me feel healthy when I see people in their cars instead of walking.
Anyways,some homework is sitting on my bed waiting to be done.Don't expect much in the next little while,I've been busy thinking too much..
-Malika