I kinda have a thing for you...but only kinda

My Birthday is in 9Days....

"Why do I always get scared?"

I always seem to hide when the slightest bit of infatuation and/or stomach butterflies come my way. In my closet,under the covers,under something tha will hide me. Why?, I can't answer that even for myself, maybe you can tell me?
It's something I want though,well kind of... it's something I've been wanting for awhile,but now that I can reach it I want to turn around and run away, never to see your face again.
Love and be hurt?
OR
Never have loved at all?
If you really need to know, I'd pick option number two. I've learned love is the one thing that can truly hurt a person. I get lost for words a lot too, so he'll have to provide the conversation that came so easily before to me, now that I can no longer think of things to say to you...

"I suppose this is something I should probably work at...caring for people"