Everybody's gotta learn sometimes.

"I'm really into that whole unexplainable love thing.."

I can't explain the mood I'm in, but I'll tell you that I've just watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. If you've saw the movie you should understand, but if you haven't, that means you should see it ASAP. Such a wonderful movie,one of my favourites. Michel Gondry is the director, he also directed a movie I really want to see, The Science of Sleep. I watched the trailor for it awhile back and was interested but I haven't been able to find it yet and I refuse to watch it over the computer. My grandpa's birthday thing with the whole family was today,it was...smooth. Nothing went wrong,except for the fact that I pwned my cousin when he started badmouthing my ex,thinking that I'd go with it,nope!..not the case. It was the first time I ever saw my grandpa cry,and a lot of my family members. It's as if we were at his funeral,but he was still alive. My mom cried and I had to leave,not because I thought I would've started,but because I can't stand when people cry infront of me.It's something I've alway avoided,it defeats me when someone cries,makes me cringe..because when I cry it's usually my last resort at trying to make everything better,an emotional overdose.I don't know if many people are like that,and it might seem as though I have no heart,but I'll argue that because I'm the opposite,I have too much. If someone is crying I'll do almost anything to make them stop and try my best to get to the bottom of the situation. It took me an hour to write this because I kept getting sidetracked with music and conversations I was having. Anyway,it's about time I go and get my dosage of sims,I'm making a school on there(ironic no?) and I'm getting close to being done(I'm a really big nerd). PS-Listen to Radiohead,they're amazing.
-Malika

"I think it's because it's something I'll always want,complicated and funny but super passionate underneath it all"